God placed his dreams on my heart from when I was a child in Junior High School. The desire, to look after orphans and serve the poor. The intense emotions would flood my body in a raging rapid, white water, no rest. I've always had this connection. In a moments thought, his desire is upon me.
God has desires and is using me to gather people all over the world for a purpose of unity and discovery. All the plans are there but, there is something else that is waiting that my eyes and fears start to tear.
I'm out on faith again. I left my job. I haven't settled into Maryland (MD). My room, unfinished, I sleep on the floor on a mat that I enjoy, I eat oatmeal and peanut butter- not on the American diet. I dream of freeing people and flying many places, I don't live on my salary, I saved it for HIS desire.
After I accepted my move to MD. Well, I had no choice. It was meant for me to move here or else I would have been a liar. It was a hard move. As the kidney stones had bleed through my body, I felt like I was being ripped from my hearts desire. I wasn't ready to leave NYC because the teens were my life and ministry to unite. I was being moved, like the kidney stones inside of me, I didn't choose. This was the last of 3 stones that started to pass from my journey in Israel to NYC to MD, and now free of it - I go to the Philippines.
I cried out to not allow my stones to stand in the way of the oatmeal and peanut butter savings. Broken from this news that I had to pay thousands of dollars revealed to me that the oatmeal and peanut butter savings is and was to be used on serving the abandoned and poor who have little to no food.
I cry out as I type because I haven't accomplished what my eyes set out to do. From very young, I told myself, use all your talents to have a million dollar bank account. Do I have one? I do now, to impact on a scale unmeasured because of the sponge God made me. I was told, I was a SPONGE. I have so much, my views have changed, blessed beyond the American dream, we are only a few.
HIS dream became MINE and now it's coming true.
What are you going to do?
Written to you by: Cir-Ron
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